You were right about so many things mom. Even when you said I'd regret not listening someday. I do. And I miss you. Every minute of every day.

Miss you Mom... Not a day goes by that I don't. I hate what I got stuck with, what you left behind. It's not fair. You raised me to be the best I can be and to love with my whole being. So I do. My so-called family just beats my confidence down & likes to belittle me. I don't get it. What did I ever do to them? Other than to be the best sibling I could be. I never say no, I run the first instance something happens. I genuinely care. When all they do is shrug their shoulders. I should have listened to Daddy when he told me to just worry about me and F**k everyone else. I get screwed all the time. Wish I could feel you hug my hurting heart right now. It's nothing new Mom, it's always been like this. I'll always be just the outcast. Never anything more. You live and you learn. I just try to be the best Mom I could possibly be to my boys. I wish you were here to meet Joel. You'd love him to pieces. Come to me in my dreams, Mom. I need your comfort tonight I love you= & miss you, yesterday, today, tomorrow & always...

5 1/2 yrs later... its still just as hard as the day you left. I don't know who I am. I'm confused lost alone hurt afraid... I wish there was a way we could visit each other physically... whether it be traveling back through time or visiting in heaven every once on a while.... I miss my parents.... I love you yesterday today tomorrow and always....