Its been so hard without you here. It's even harder without you AND daddy. I'm so lost, alone, afraid, hurt, sad. I am so scared to move because I am so fearful of what the future will hold. My heart can't handle anymore hurt. My eyes can't cry any more tears. What does the world look like from Heaven when your looking down? Do you see the tears in my eyes? The pain in my heart? You both have been in my dreams lately & I know your telling me that you're here. But it still doesn't take away the pain. I think the only thing that I could thank God for is David. He is the only one who is keeping me going. Maybe that why he gave him to me when he did. Because God knew what was in store and knew I would need someone to keep me going. Because honestly Mommy, without David I wouldn't be here. It's amazing how an 8 year old little boy can bring so much light into my darkened world & how much his hugs, kisses, smile and "I love you's" can make the worst day seem instantly better. I'm just so glad he got to meet you guys. I just wish he got to experience the greatness of his grandparents a little longer. He loved Daddy so much. They were buddies. he cries for you. I try everything I can to keep both of your memories alive in his heart. Mommy... Please I ask one thing... PLEASE WALK BESIDE ME AND HELP ME BE THE MOTHER YOU WERE TO ME. I love and miss you ... yesterday, today, tomorrow...always...