Happy New Year, Mommy. It's been almost a month since I signed on here and wrote. It's just been too hard for me mom. I have these feelings that when I park the car, I'm going to come upstairs, and there you'll be, just laying on the couch watching T.V. I'll come in and I'll take care of your every need the best that I can. Then, when I open the door, I open it to nothing but lonliness. The couch is empty, the t.v. is off... Its quiet. All I have when I walk into that house, is memories. Both good and bad. I went to the prayer house today and taped a card to the wall where your picture is. I wrtoe my feelings in that card because it was the only way I knew how to try to let some of my pain out of my system. Mommy, I love you so much. Merry Christmas & Happy New Year in Heaven... You're headstone is beautiful I hope you like it too.. I love you, Mommy. With every single piece of me. Yesterday, today, tomorrow, Always...